Hi future readers,
This is Solution Seeker. After serious and sustained solution seeking, I have found myself here. I started off indoctrinated into catholicism as a child, became an atheist in college after questioning my beliefs, and only recently identified some flaws in my thinking at the start of 2022. The primary flaw was a fundamental misunderstanding of "the hard problem of consciousness". The solution to which was a figure-ground reversal from materialism to idealism, and then to the triune system (information, cognition, and the relation between the two which is awareness (or telesis in CTMU terms)), where awareness generates the thought and physical realms. I now consider myself to be a nonconceptualist.
It now seems apparent to me that the cycles of birth and death are designed for God to know what it is by figuring out what it's not through the dissociation of fragments of its awareness. God is not JUST the dissociated fragments, but rather the entirety of existence (including all fragments). To transcend the thought and physical realms by abiding in awareness is to self-unify. We are all one, and that one is God.